他的话使我想起了我的父亲,我的父亲正是和他的父亲完全一样的。
That put me in mind of my father.
我的父亲曾经为我苦了一生,把我养大,送我进学校,为我造了屋子,买了几亩田地。
My father was very much like this.
六十岁那一年,还到汉口去做生意,怕人家嫌他年老,只好说五十几岁。
Father went through untold hardships for me all his life.
大家都劝他不要再出门,他偏背着包裹走了。
He brought me up, sent me to school, had a house built for me and bought me a few mu of land.
"让我再帮儿子几年!" 他只是这样说。
He went to Hankou to engage in trade the yar when he was already sixty.
后来屋子被火烧掉了,他还想再做生意,把屋子重造起来。
And he tried to make out that he was still in his fifties lest people should consider him too old to be of much use.
我安慰他说,三年以后我自己就可积起钱造屋了,还是等一等吧。
We had all tried to dissuade him from going out to Hankou, but he simply wouldn't listen and left home carrying the luggage on his back.
他答应了。
"Let me toil a few more years for my son's sake!" That was what he said.
他给我留下了许多造屋的材料,告诉我这样可以做什么那样可以做什么。
It happened afterwards that the house was burned down.
他死的以前不久,还对我说: "早一点造起来吧,我可以给你监工。" 但是他终于没有看见屋子重造起来就死了。
And he wanted to go back to his business in order to have the house rebuilt.
他弥留的时候对我说,一切都满足了。
I try to console him, saying that there was no need for him to do it because in three years' time and I myself would have laid by enough money for a new house.
但是我知道他倘能再活几年,我把屋子造起来,是他所最心愿的。
He agreed.
我听到他弥留时的呻吟和叹息,我相信那不是病的痛苦的呻吟和叹息。
Then he gave me a lot of building materials and told me what to do with them.
我知道他还想再活几年,帮我造起屋子来。
Shortly before his death, he urged me, "You'd better get started right away so that I can watch to see what everything is done properly." Unfortunately he didn't live long enough to see the new house.
现在我自己已是几个孩子的父亲了。
He told me on his deathbed that he had nothing to feel sorry about.
我爱孩子,但我没有前一辈父亲的想法,帮孩子一直帮到老,帮到死还不足。
But I knew he would be much happier if he could leave a few more years just to see the new house put up.
我赞美前一辈父亲的美德,而自己却不能跟着他们的步伐走去。
When I heard his dying groans and sighs, I believed they were cost not by physical pain, but I regret for not being able to live a few more years to help me with the new house.
我觉得我的孩子累我,使我受到极大的束缚。
Now I myself am a father of several children.
我没有对他们的永久的计划,甚至连最短促的也没有。
Though I love my kids, I do not share the idea of father and people of his time that one can never do too much in his lifetime to help his children.
"倘使有人要,我愿意把他们送给人家!" 我常常这样说,当我厌烦孩子的时候。
Much as I admire my father and people of his time for their moral excellence, I can never follow in their footsteps.
哎,和前一辈做父亲的一比,我觉得我们这一辈生命力薄弱得可怜,我们二三十岁的人比不上六七十岁的前辈,他们虽然老的老死的死了,但是他们才是真正活着到现在到将来。
I think of my children as an encumbrance to me.